2005-01-27
Hope Exists
other: can i add u
self: can I stop you ?
other: ok
self: yes, please add me
other: thank u om
other: u r real
self: thank you for saying so, but I don't think I am
self: are you Leuk ?
other: yes
other: i am a good boy
other: but dying
self: how old are you ?
self: we are all dying
other: 19
self: we are all dead
other: why all?
other: cant i continue life like u
self: because there is no one who is now alive who is not going to in another moment not be alive
self: of course you can
self: but first you have to see past your fear of death
self: your fear is killing you too
other: is it
other: i am feeling stronger
self: see your fear as an object in your mind
self: any object at all
other: ok
other: then
self: reach out and touch it with your mind
self: experience all your fears at once
self: let them wash over you
self: and realize
other: ok
self: they cannot hurt you
self: because they are only in your mind
other: i am concentrating
self: they cannot hurt you
other: i am trying
self: no fear can hurt you
self: because you create your own fears
other: makes me feel momentarily good
other:
self: a moment is all that is necessary
other: yeah
self: let go of the object in your mind
self: and let go of your fear
other: live in the present
other: i mean it
self: see the object fall onto the ground in your mind
other: i am trying
self: and shatter
other: i do meditation
other: and kriya
other: Art Of Living
other: they help me
other: pain is a lot in chest
self: tell the pain to stop
self: look at the pain and be happy
self: don't be afraid
self: look at the pain
self: smile at the pain
self: see the pain for what it is
other: yes
self: and realize the pain is in your mind too
other: for what is it Om?
self: it is a part of your self that thinks it is alive
self: smile at it
other: Om how old are u?
self: love it.
other:
other: i love pain
other: eh
other: no matter what
other: it cant touch me
other: i am believing it
other: eh
self: with practice
self: the pain can be seen and loved, loved and felt not as a sign of death
self: but as a reassurance of life
self: don't be afraid
other: hey
other: 15 days more to live
other: can i relive them
self: you're so lucky
other: why?
self: you get to see what comes next
other: i am looking at ur point of view
other: its shining
other: yeah
other: tell me how to make the best use of these days
self: live each day as if it were your last
self: throw away your ideas that limit you
self: and do what makes you happy
self: what makes you happy ?
other: i like to see bird
other: birds
self: what else ?
other: and do good to little cancer children
other: i love them
self: what else ?
other: painting
other: swimming
other: see the pic of my dead mother
self: go do all those things
self: don't wait another second
other: chatting also
other: om
self:
self: forget that you have 15 days
other: yes
self: live like this was your last hour
self: but make it a happy hour
self: a truely wonderful
self: funny
other: i have a tear in my eye
self: fullhearted
other: its trickling down to my cheek
self: exubberant
self: loving
self: compassionate
other: i am not anymore sad
self: hour
other: yeahhhhhhhhhhh
other: hey tell me one thing
other: how can i get in touch wih u later
self:
self: right here
other: i have decided not to kill myself now
other: i will live
other: in the present
other: i wanted to win a nobel prize
other: that was a dream
self: life is a dream
other: i work for it
other: but u c
self: change your desires into wishes
self: wishes not for this life, but for the next
self: make the wishes happy and full of love
other: yes!
self: then go make those wishes happen
other: what about the girl i loved
other: she left me
self: don't worry about her
self: she's be fine
other: as i got cacner
self: and happy
other:
self: you can let that go
other: i want this
other: yes
other: hey
other: Om
other: i want to be the best human on earth
other: how can i be?
self: wish for it
self: all wishes made from the honest pure loving heart are granted
other: hey om
other: i love you for saving me tonight
self: I love you, too
other: i wud have killed otherwise
other: i am a code breaker otherwise
other: i am hearing sweet music of life in my ears
other: i am living
other: yeah
other: ueah
self:
other: om
other: what do you do
self: I do this
other: i love doing om chanting
other: i chant u
other:
other: i love doing this
other: tell me please
other: ?
other: u r naughty?
other: !
self: This is what I do
other:
other: u are naughty
other: lol
self: I am happy
other: what u do for living!
self: this is how I live
other: i mean how u earn money?
self: I have no money
self: Not a penny
other: how do u use the internet then
other: and wear clothes
self:
other: and eat food
self: that is my secret
other: u r cute
other: do you steal
self: no
other: ?
self: of course not
other: then
other: i was kidding
other: then
other: ommmmmmmmmmmm
self: because life is a dream
other: who gives u food
other: dad, mom?
self: from my previous life
self: the life before I became buddhist
self: no, I provide for myself
self: and the kindness of others
other: and what is ur good name?
other:
self: what does "good name" mean ?
other: name?
other: like i am Anirudh
self: yes, but I do not know what a good name is
self: what is a good name ?
other: that what i can call u with
other: i like calling u om
other: hey
other: my brother beats me
other: shud i resist him
other: ?
self: no
self: how old is he ?
other: 2 years older
self: smile and tell him you love him
self: feel the love for him
other: even when he is beating... i take all his beating on my heart?
other: but dont revolt
self: no, you take them on your body
self: your heart cannot be touched
self: be happy before
self: be happy during
self: be happy afterward
other: when he abuses mumma it does
self: he cannot take that from you
other: ok
other: i am feeling rock solid now.
other: like lord buddh
self: now know that you cannot maintain that forever
other: why
self: you can however, let yourself fail and know that you can choose to be happy whenever you want
other: i want to maitain
self: impermanence
self: all things change
self: but just because you are not happy in a moment does not mean you cannot become happy again
self: patience
other: dont u have urge for becoming rich
self: and allowing yourself to fail and learn from failing
other: financially
self:
self: Not anymore
other: what did u use to do dear before?
self: "becoming rich" is such a western concept
other: u r anti western
other: ?
self: no
self: I am both eastern and western
self: I was conceived in the usa, but born in japan
self: I lived many years outside the usa
self: I lived many years inside the usa
self: so I am both
other: ok
other: hahahaha
other: do u get angry
self: sometimes
other: if some pins u
other: or hits u
other: or abuses
self: it's something I am getting much better at being patient with though
self: a long time ago, when I was only 8 years old I had a bully
other: ok
other: then
other: what comments do u have for the godmen
self: godmen ? what is that ?
other: those who preach gof
other: god
other: hey
other: OM
self: yes ?
other: do u preach
self: No, I practice
other: ok
other:
other: i am learning from u
other: a lot
self: a human cannot learn from their success
other: do u know fighting..karate or anything
self: only from their failure
self: fighting and karate are not the same
other: ok
self: in martial arts it is said, "if you throw the punch, you have already lost the fight"
other: i c
other: oh i got the concept
other: ok
other: do u know martial arts?
self: yes and no
other: means what?
self: I am a martial art
other: okkk
other: hahhaa
other: goood, the best u can be
self: in the east, everything can be an art
self: even the art of serving tea
other: i am from india
other: u?
self: as I said, I am from the east and the west
self: however, my physical body is currently in dallas, texas, usa
other: dallas?
other: ok
other: when will u come to india to see Anirudh ur friend..
self: that will be difficult
self: since I have no money
self: however, I am with you now
self: my hand on your left shoulder
other: why not on right
self: because I chose the left
self: with my right hand
other:
other: hehe
other:
other: i must live in the present... ok..but will it not effect my efforts for being alright
other: to be fine....the extra effort that is required
other: i mean that
other: wont that b reduced
self: there is no present
self: there is no past
self: there is no future
self: only the moment
self: so any effort you make will be the only one that exists
other:
other: can i be calm and smart both?
self: you can be many things
self: you can be one thing
self: you can be all things
self: you can be nothing
self: it is your choice
other: ok
other: i get u , but little confused
self: just a minute please
other: but in a spirit to live
other: ok
other: hey
other:
self: ok, I'm back
self: mystery is a good thing
self: it makes you curious
other: haha
self: however, I cannot be known or understood
other: ues
other: yes
self: I defy definition
self:
other: champ
self: but in a really good way
other: how
other: ur concepts are deeeep
other: i love digging them
self: not really my concepts
self: but thank you
other: buddhism
self: and a few other things
self: sort of east meets west best of compilation
other: it came from India. wont u like to visit
self: yes, very much
other: yes
other: come .
self: no money
other: come with ur friends
self: no friends with that kind of money
other: hahhhhhahaa
other: u r content
other: arent u
other: but, a content person lacks ambition..is it?
other: i think
self: content ?
self: naw, happy
other: bill gates wudnt have been, had he been content
other: or satisfied
other: i mean
self: content means I wouldn't have bothered helping you
other: oh
self: compassionate
self: lovingkindness
self: practice
self: patience
other: i love u
self: I love you, too
other: will call u to india if i have money
other: i want to earn it so that i can call u
other: is that a bad thing
other: ?
other: i am feeling empty
self: no honest compassionate loving desire is wrong
self: in fact, those are the best kind of desires to have
self: when you put strength behind the pure desire it becomes a wish
self: a wish that becomes true
other: ok
self: however, as a wise man once said...
other: yes
other: do u have a mobile phone.? i will sms u something
other:
self: You are never given a wish without also being given the power to make it true.
self: You may have to work for it, however.
other: yeah
self: In this time I have a cell phone without battery
self: out of choice
other: hahaha
other: nokia?
other: i know how to make a bomb of a nokia
other: great explosion
other: dhoooooooooooooooooooooom
other:
self: hehehe
other: do u think sex is bad?
other:
other:
self: nothing is bad, it is only the thoughts and desires that can be bad or good
other: are u married?
other: if a poor lady comes to u ask asks u to marry her..will u do so?
other: i am saything this as
self: it would depend on a great many things
other: i think ppl consider themselves superior
self: so if it were the first I saw of her ? I might say yes and share a good laugh with her
other: physical beauty counts?
other: no. or ys
other: shud i follow u blindly
self: as I said, a great many things
self: follow no man
self: follow no woman
self: follow no one blindly
other:
other: dont u follow ur master buddha blindly
other: no
other: i m sorry
self: It is a fair question
other:
self: I follow no man or woman nor would I choose to be blind to anything
self: that is what awareness and observation are for
other: ok
other: are u a convert buddhist
self: I have always been what I am
other: buddhist?
self:
self: I am many things, one of them is buddhist
other:
other: u r smart
other: nice brain u carry dude
other: see i am happy
other: i am going to do those thigs
other: things
other: which i live
other: death can be a good experience
other: as i learnt
other: hmmmmmmmm
other: bye
self: travel well
self: and be happy always
self: and when you cannot be happy, remember this
self: Hope Exists
self: can I stop you ?
other: ok
self: yes, please add me
other: thank u om
other: u r real
self: thank you for saying so, but I don't think I am
self: are you Leuk ?
other: yes
other: i am a good boy
other: but dying
self: how old are you ?
self: we are all dying
other: 19
self: we are all dead
other: why all?
other: cant i continue life like u
self: because there is no one who is now alive who is not going to in another moment not be alive
self: of course you can
self: but first you have to see past your fear of death
self: your fear is killing you too
other: is it
other: i am feeling stronger
self: see your fear as an object in your mind
self: any object at all
other: ok
other: then
self: reach out and touch it with your mind
self: experience all your fears at once
self: let them wash over you
self: and realize
other: ok
self: they cannot hurt you
self: because they are only in your mind
other: i am concentrating
self: they cannot hurt you
other: i am trying
self: no fear can hurt you
self: because you create your own fears
other: makes me feel momentarily good
other:
self: a moment is all that is necessary
other: yeah
self: let go of the object in your mind
self: and let go of your fear
other: live in the present
other: i mean it
self: see the object fall onto the ground in your mind
other: i am trying
self: and shatter
other: i do meditation
other: and kriya
other: Art Of Living
other: they help me
other: pain is a lot in chest
self: tell the pain to stop
self: look at the pain and be happy
self: don't be afraid
self: look at the pain
self: smile at the pain
self: see the pain for what it is
other: yes
self: and realize the pain is in your mind too
other: for what is it Om?
self: it is a part of your self that thinks it is alive
self: smile at it
other: Om how old are u?
self: love it.
other:
other: i love pain
other: eh
other: no matter what
other: it cant touch me
other: i am believing it
other: eh
self: with practice
self: the pain can be seen and loved, loved and felt not as a sign of death
self: but as a reassurance of life
self: don't be afraid
other: hey
other: 15 days more to live
other: can i relive them
self: you're so lucky
other: why?
self: you get to see what comes next
other: i am looking at ur point of view
other: its shining
other: yeah
other: tell me how to make the best use of these days
self: live each day as if it were your last
self: throw away your ideas that limit you
self: and do what makes you happy
self: what makes you happy ?
other: i like to see bird
other: birds
self: what else ?
other: and do good to little cancer children
other: i love them
self: what else ?
other: painting
other: swimming
other: see the pic of my dead mother
self: go do all those things
self: don't wait another second
other: chatting also
other: om
self:
self: forget that you have 15 days
other: yes
self: live like this was your last hour
self: but make it a happy hour
self: a truely wonderful
self: funny
other: i have a tear in my eye
self: fullhearted
other: its trickling down to my cheek
self: exubberant
self: loving
self: compassionate
other: i am not anymore sad
self: hour
other: yeahhhhhhhhhhh
other: hey tell me one thing
other: how can i get in touch wih u later
self:
self: right here
other: i have decided not to kill myself now
other: i will live
other: in the present
other: i wanted to win a nobel prize
other: that was a dream
self: life is a dream
other: i work for it
other: but u c
self: change your desires into wishes
self: wishes not for this life, but for the next
self: make the wishes happy and full of love
other: yes!
self: then go make those wishes happen
other: what about the girl i loved
other: she left me
self: don't worry about her
self: she's be fine
other: as i got cacner
self: and happy
other:
self: you can let that go
other: i want this
other: yes
other: hey
other: Om
other: i want to be the best human on earth
other: how can i be?
self: wish for it
self: all wishes made from the honest pure loving heart are granted
other: hey om
other: i love you for saving me tonight
self: I love you, too
other: i wud have killed otherwise
other: i am a code breaker otherwise
other: i am hearing sweet music of life in my ears
other: i am living
other: yeah
other: ueah
self:
other: om
other: what do you do
self: I do this
other: i love doing om chanting
other: i chant u
other:
other: i love doing this
other: tell me please
other: ?
other: u r naughty?
other: !
self: This is what I do
other:
other: u are naughty
other: lol
self: I am happy
other: what u do for living!
self: this is how I live
other: i mean how u earn money?
self: I have no money
self: Not a penny
other: how do u use the internet then
other: and wear clothes
self:
other: and eat food
self: that is my secret
other: u r cute
other: do you steal
self: no
other: ?
self: of course not
other: then
other: i was kidding
other: then
other: ommmmmmmmmmmm
self: because life is a dream
other: who gives u food
other: dad, mom?
self: from my previous life
self: the life before I became buddhist
self: no, I provide for myself
self: and the kindness of others
other: and what is ur good name?
other:
self: what does "good name" mean ?
other: name?
other: like i am Anirudh
self: yes, but I do not know what a good name is
self: what is a good name ?
other: that what i can call u with
other: i like calling u om
other: hey
other: my brother beats me
other: shud i resist him
other: ?
self: no
self: how old is he ?
other: 2 years older
self: smile and tell him you love him
self: feel the love for him
other: even when he is beating... i take all his beating on my heart?
other: but dont revolt
self: no, you take them on your body
self: your heart cannot be touched
self: be happy before
self: be happy during
self: be happy afterward
other: when he abuses mumma it does
self: he cannot take that from you
other: ok
other: i am feeling rock solid now.
other: like lord buddh
self: now know that you cannot maintain that forever
other: why
self: you can however, let yourself fail and know that you can choose to be happy whenever you want
other: i want to maitain
self: impermanence
self: all things change
self: but just because you are not happy in a moment does not mean you cannot become happy again
self: patience
other: dont u have urge for becoming rich
self: and allowing yourself to fail and learn from failing
other: financially
self:
self: Not anymore
other: what did u use to do dear before?
self: "becoming rich" is such a western concept
other: u r anti western
other: ?
self: no
self: I am both eastern and western
self: I was conceived in the usa, but born in japan
self: I lived many years outside the usa
self: I lived many years inside the usa
self: so I am both
other: ok
other: hahahaha
other: do u get angry
self: sometimes
other: if some pins u
other: or hits u
other: or abuses
self: it's something I am getting much better at being patient with though
self: a long time ago, when I was only 8 years old I had a bully
other: ok
other: then
other: what comments do u have for the godmen
self: godmen ? what is that ?
other: those who preach gof
other: god
other: hey
other: OM
self: yes ?
other: do u preach
self: No, I practice
other: ok
other:
other: i am learning from u
other: a lot
self: a human cannot learn from their success
other: do u know fighting..karate or anything
self: only from their failure
self: fighting and karate are not the same
other: ok
self: in martial arts it is said, "if you throw the punch, you have already lost the fight"
other: i c
other: oh i got the concept
other: ok
other: do u know martial arts?
self: yes and no
other: means what?
self: I am a martial art
other: okkk
other: hahhaa
other: goood, the best u can be
self: in the east, everything can be an art
self: even the art of serving tea
other: i am from india
other: u?
self: as I said, I am from the east and the west
self: however, my physical body is currently in dallas, texas, usa
other: dallas?
other: ok
other: when will u come to india to see Anirudh ur friend..
self: that will be difficult
self: since I have no money
self: however, I am with you now
self: my hand on your left shoulder
other: why not on right
self: because I chose the left
self: with my right hand
other:
other: hehe
other:
other: i must live in the present... ok..but will it not effect my efforts for being alright
other: to be fine....the extra effort that is required
other: i mean that
other: wont that b reduced
self: there is no present
self: there is no past
self: there is no future
self: only the moment
self: so any effort you make will be the only one that exists
other:
other: can i be calm and smart both?
self: you can be many things
self: you can be one thing
self: you can be all things
self: you can be nothing
self: it is your choice
other: ok
other: i get u , but little confused
self: just a minute please
other: but in a spirit to live
other: ok
other: hey
other:
self: ok, I'm back
self: mystery is a good thing
self: it makes you curious
other: haha
self: however, I cannot be known or understood
other: ues
other: yes
self: I defy definition
self:
other: champ
self: but in a really good way
other: how
other: ur concepts are deeeep
other: i love digging them
self: not really my concepts
self: but thank you
other: buddhism
self: and a few other things
self: sort of east meets west best of compilation
other: it came from India. wont u like to visit
self: yes, very much
other: yes
other: come .
self: no money
other: come with ur friends
self: no friends with that kind of money
other: hahhhhhahaa
other: u r content
other: arent u
other: but, a content person lacks ambition..is it?
other: i think
self: content ?
self: naw, happy
other: bill gates wudnt have been, had he been content
other: or satisfied
other: i mean
self: content means I wouldn't have bothered helping you
other: oh
self: compassionate
self: lovingkindness
self: practice
self: patience
other: i love u
self: I love you, too
other: will call u to india if i have money
other: i want to earn it so that i can call u
other: is that a bad thing
other: ?
other: i am feeling empty
self: no honest compassionate loving desire is wrong
self: in fact, those are the best kind of desires to have
self: when you put strength behind the pure desire it becomes a wish
self: a wish that becomes true
other: ok
self: however, as a wise man once said...
other: yes
other: do u have a mobile phone.? i will sms u something
other:
self: You are never given a wish without also being given the power to make it true.
self: You may have to work for it, however.
other: yeah
self: In this time I have a cell phone without battery
self: out of choice
other: hahaha
other: nokia?
other: i know how to make a bomb of a nokia
other: great explosion
other: dhoooooooooooooooooooooom
other:
self: hehehe
other: do u think sex is bad?
other:
other:
self: nothing is bad, it is only the thoughts and desires that can be bad or good
other: are u married?
other: if a poor lady comes to u ask asks u to marry her..will u do so?
other: i am saything this as
self: it would depend on a great many things
other: i think ppl consider themselves superior
self: so if it were the first I saw of her ? I might say yes and share a good laugh with her
other: physical beauty counts?
other: no. or ys
other: shud i follow u blindly
self: as I said, a great many things
self: follow no man
self: follow no woman
self: follow no one blindly
other:
other: dont u follow ur master buddha blindly
other: no
other: i m sorry
self: It is a fair question
other:
self: I follow no man or woman nor would I choose to be blind to anything
self: that is what awareness and observation are for
other: ok
other: are u a convert buddhist
self: I have always been what I am
other: buddhist?
self:
self: I am many things, one of them is buddhist
other:
other: u r smart
other: nice brain u carry dude
other: see i am happy
other: i am going to do those thigs
other: things
other: which i live
other: death can be a good experience
other: as i learnt
other: hmmmmmmmm
other: bye
self: travel well
self: and be happy always
self: and when you cannot be happy, remember this
self: Hope Exists
2005-01-26
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How I'm losing weight or How you can eat better
Joanne says:
what has made you very happy?
Self says:
it's a long story, but the short version is I'm buddhist
Joanne says:
interesting choice
Joanne says:
so you dont have to give up all your world goods do you?>
Self says:
no, but I am anyway
Self says:
Currently living very nicely without any money
Joanne says:
how can you live very nicely with out money
Joanne says:
cause i need to know something like that
Self says:
You'd be surprised how difficult it is to get rid of every single penny I possessed
Joanne says:
are you still working?
Self says:
Yes, but not in the way you mean
Self says:
I haven't written a line of code in almost 7 months now
Self says:
What I'm doing now doesn't really have a name yet
Self says:
Have you read any of my blogs ?
Self says:
http://inthelifeofwillrawls.blogspot.com
Joanne says:
no im afraid i have not
Self says:
http://thirdsocialnet.blogspot.com
Self says:
http://willrawls.blogspot.com
Self says:
So how have you been ?
Joanne says:
im doing good
Joanne says:
currently looking for work
Self says:
oo, thanks for reminding me. I have to give this guy a call
Self says:
so what's got you not happy ?
Joanne says:
Aaron will be home for good the first week of march
Self says:
It can seem so impossible when someone you love is experiencing such unhappiness themselves
Joanne says:
Hes doing so much better
Self says:
What else ?
Self says:
How bad had he gotten ?
Joanne says:
two years ago he was having sucidal thought
Joanne says:
and trying to act a bit on them
Self says:
Yeah, he told me some about that
Self says:
well... he told me a few weeks ago
Joanne says:
he has been in two group homes getting coundeling .... then getting his meds adjusted now hes feeling better about himself and life
Self says:
hm... how many medications ?
Joanne says:
i beleive 3
Self says:
eventually he won't need those anymore
Joanne says:
im hoping
Self says:
through my darkest moments
Joanne says:
but like me mine may be for the rest of my live
Self says:
even after I had lost hope
Self says:
and forgot what the meaning of the word meant
Self says:
the little voice said, "Hope Exists"
Self says:
Self says:
I put that in my cell phone. Each time I had to make a phone call I had to read those two words.
Self says:
Now, I don't need the cell phone anymore
Joanne says:
i see on your talking with your friend and posting your words you are up alot in the middle of the morning
Joanne says:
so question do you sleep?
Self says:
A couple of years ago I found out I had a sleeping disorder
Joanne says:
sleep apnea?
Self says:
Delayed Sleep Phase Syndrome
Self says:
short answer is "I'm a night person"
Joanne says:
explain that please
Joanne says:
omg
Joanne says:
so many have that prob
Self says:
long answer is my body releases melatonin completely out of sync with the day / night cycles
Self says:
well... not really
Self says:
you see many night people can choose to become day people.
Self says:
I can't
Joanne says:
no i hear that
Self says:
I'm pretty much at the mercy of my body
Self says:
Joanne says:
i have to be sleeping between mid and 6 am
Self says:
Here, let me find you a good web page about it.
Joanne says:
did i tell you that in june i was diagnosed with diabetes 2?
Self says:
http://www.sleepdisorderchannel.net/dsps/
Self says:
hehehe... No Joanne, we have almost not spoken in several years
Self says:
so you gained a lot of weight ?
Self says:
My doctor diagnosed me with "Metabolic Syndrome" almost a year ago. That's a pre diabetic condition. I've been losing weight ever since
Joanne says:
i weighd the same since having kat
Joanne says:
over 200
Joanne says:
never could loose it
Joanne says:
with a change of diet, no sugar, no pasta, no rice
Joanne says:
i have lost over 20 lbs
Self says:
Self says:
well, you can have rice, it just has to be brown rice
Joanne says:
and if i can find some really good shoes ill be walking
Joanne says:
i have heel spurs on both feet
Self says:
you can have pasta it just has to be made from multiple grains, spinich, and tomatos
Joanne says:
i have been looking for those
Joanne says:
i think john and I need to go to some natrual stores
Joanne says:
we use to eat that pasta when were first together
Self says:
I can give you everything you need. I lost 80 pounds by educating myself on how to eat.
Joanne says:
thats awsome William
Self says:
well, I still have 80 pounds to go.
Self says:
there's a picture of me in that first blog "In the life of William Rawls"
Self says:
It was taken a few weeks ago
Self says:
since going buddhist I've become near vegan though, so I've had to completely rethink my selections of foods again
Self says:
it's kinda fun though.
Self says:
still loosing weight, too
Joanne says:
my mother in law is a near vegan and she is tooooo skinny
Self says:
hehehe... Well, I have a loooong way to go before I get too skinny
Self says:
however, it is a problem I would happily deal with
Joanne says:
shes weight probablly less then a small young teen
Self says:
see, even vegans don't know how to eat properly.
Self says:
so you want some quick pointers that took me forever to learn ?
Joanne says:
she slow added some fish and chicken to her diet
Joanne says:
shes been a vegan since she was like 30
Self says:
see, she didn't pay attention. she could have just included soy proteins
Self says:
non-GMO soy that is
Joanne says:
dont know what non gmo is
Self says:
GMO mean Genertically Modified.
Joanne says:
and id love any pointers you have
Self says:
It's where they put animal genes into plants to make the grow better.
Self says:
since buddhists don't eat animals
Self says:
nor take anything from them (milk, honey, eggs)
Self says:
taking a gene would be just as wrong
Self says:
however, vegans take the concept too far
Self says:
for instance. I can drink milk as long as it came from a happy cow
Self says:
eat honey if it came from happy bees
Joanne says:
ok but how do you know if a happy cow or not?
Self says:
even have eggs if the chickens are happy
Self says:
well, you look at the cow's lifestyle
Self says:
was the cow mistreated ?
Self says:
was it fed from non-GMO products ?
Self says:
did it get to pretty much do what it wanted or was it forced to produce milk ?
Self says:
happy cows ? happy milk !
Self says:
happy buddhist
Joanne says:
have you seen the adds for calif milk?
Self says:
naw, I don't watch much TV these days and pretty much anything from California isn't exactly welcomed in Texas (except mushrooms and raisins for some reason )
Self says:
however, those aren't the pointers I meant to tell you about.
Joanne says:
i was kidding sorry
Self says:
what are you sorry about ? I'm happy
Self says:
I've been giving serious thought to actually coming back to california.
Joanne says:
well we would love to see you
Self says:
However, I'm currently searching for the right buddhist school to go to.
Joanne says:
they have buddhist school here?
Self says:
probably
Self says:
they seem to be everywhere when you know to look for them.
Self says:
unfortunately they're mostly geared for the western mind.
Self says:
I have both a western and eastern mind.
Self says:
I know I'm interested in a Tibetan Mahayana tradition though, preferablly from a non Ripoche
Self says:
the pointers I thought I'd mention though
Self says:
you still there ?
Joanne says:
yes
Self says:
there are 8 things to realize
Self says:
there are bad fats, good fats, very good fats, bad carbohydrates, good carbohydrates, bad proteins, and good proteins
Self says:
I learned to choose my foods that contained all the good and very good while limiting my bads as much as possible.
Joanne says:
thats 7
Self says:
hehehe... actually it's 8
Self says:
the "I learned..." is the 8th
Joanne says:
oh ok
Joanne says:
Self says:
you see, knowing is only half the battle.
Self says:
without actually choosing it would have done me no good
Self says:
so what's a bad fat ?
Self says:
a bad fat is saturated
Self says:
a bad fat is also trans
Joanne says:
fry food from a fast food joint
Self says:
nope
Joanne says:
hehe
Self says:
that isn't necessary correct.
Self says:
I thought so too, and you are correct, mostly.
Self says:
but the key is to realize that, just as with everything else in life, there are no absolute rules for fast food anymore.
Self says:
fast food is actually creating some very healthy foods
Self says:
let's continue on the 8 things though
Self says:
so bad fats include saturated and trans fats
Self says:
the good fat is poly
Self says:
the VERY good fat is mono
Self says:
(i might have those reversed)
Self says:
the very good fat helps you lose weight
Self says:
the good fat helps your body function
Self says:
the bad fat does lots of really nasty things to the body, especially over time.
Self says:
bad carbohydrates are simple carbohydrates.
Self says:
good carbohydrates are complex carbohydrates.
Self says:
bad carbs are bad because your body is a carb burning machine.
Self says:
except when it has too many carbs that is.
Self says:
then your body does something interesting with bad carbs...
Self says:
bad carbs (and pretty much just bad carbs) get converted directly into body fat.
Self says:
I found, before I became educated on all this, that like 80 percent of my entire food selections were made up of bad carbs.
Self says:
bad proteins are non-lean
Self says:
good proteins are lean
Self says:
you with me ?
Joanne says:
yes
Self says:
a lean protein include soy (very good protein for women as it increases estrogen levels), fish, chicken (no skin), turkey, and the very expensive selections of beef
Self says:
non-lean proteins include any protein that contain a high percentage of any kind of fat.
Self says:
for instance, ground beef isn't lean
Self says:
filet mingon is lean (but too expensive to be included in food selections either of us can afford )
Self says:
that list of lean proteins is pretty much the order you'd want to include them in your diet.
Joanne says:
right
Joanne says:
i eat pork chops, chicken breast and black angus steak burgers
Joanne says:
among other things
Self says:
I REALLY didn't like to eat fish, but found that once I got over my "I don't want to eat fish" thing I was surprised at how many fish I had not tried that tasted GREAT. I also found that I loved sushi and sashimi.
Self says:
pork is tricky
Self says:
it can be lean
Self says:
but it can also be non-lean.
Joanne says:
never had sushi
Joanne says:
dont know what sashimi is
Self says:
sushi is the roll.
Self says:
california roll is the most common.
Self says:
sashimi is when you just have the fish
Self says:
there is cooked and uncooked sushi
Self says:
there is only uncooked sashimi
Self says:
a pork loin is lean
Self says:
however, it pretty much comes down to reading the label on every thing you buy.
Joanne says:
i get alot of my food from the schwann guy
Joanne says:
and its a Boneless Pork Loin Chops
Self says:
if it doesn't list trans fat, look through the ingrediants for the word "hydrolized". Hydrolized is generally very bad because it changes a normaly good fat into a bad fat.
Self says:
remember #8
Self says:
choice
Self says:
food selections
Self says:
notice I did not say "diet" at any time
Joanne says:
yes i know
Joanne says:
ppl kept on telling me on the atkins diet
Joanne says:
i said no
Joanne says:
its what I have to eat
Self says:
A small handful of mixed nuts each day is a good thing.
Self says:
I'm not atkins
Self says:
Self says:
I simply went and educated myself
Joanne says:
i wasnt saying that
Self says:
I decided not to look at it as a diet, but as a way of life, the way I would eat for the rest of my life.
Joanne says:
yes correct
Self says:
Sorry, I guess I have a thing with Atkins... I can't count the number of times people say
Self says:
"Oh so your on Atkins" or "your on south beach"
Self says:
then I ask them what a good carb is and they look at me blankly
Joanne says:
hehe
Joanne says:
i was talking to a lady i worked with recently
Joanne says:
she has had diabetes for years
Joanne says:
she says she doenst even know how to count carbs
Joanne says:
i think she just doesnt want to deal with it
Self says:
that's why #8 is the 8th realization.
Self says:
without it, I would not have been able to lose 80 pounds nor would I be able to be buddhist and not gain weight again
Self says:
it's simply a matter of reading each label and seeing the number of carbs to the number of proteins and fats.
Self says:
if it has a lot of fat, that's not a bad thing since your body doesn't store fat as fat.
Self says:
however, if it has a lot of saturated fats and pretty much any amount of trans fat, it isn't good for the body to have a lot of those floating around in the bloodstream.
Self says:
so look for food that contain poly and mono fats.
Self says:
if it doesn't list them, then just subtract the saturated and trans from the total.
Self says:
mixed nuts are a great example.
Self says:
loaded in fat.
Self says:
however, almost no saturated and zero trans.
Self says:
so it's all good or very good fat
Self says:
which your body uses to increase the metabolism and to heal the body
Self says:
mixed nuts (not honey glazed) are very low in carbs and what carbs they do have are almost always fiber
Self says:
fiber is like free calories.
Self says:
sugar alcohols are very good because while they aren't complex, they aren't simple either.
Self says:
the reason a simple carb is "bad" is this.
Self says:
a complex carb's molocule is literally thousands of times more complex than a simple carb.
Self says:
so in the time it takes your body to burn 1 gram of a complex carb, it could have burned thousands of grams of simple carbs.
Self says:
the cost of your body breaking down a complex carb can even cost more than it gains.
Self says:
and the whole lean non lean protein thing is a matter of health.
Self says:
however, by realizing your body needs your mind to make the right choices of foods, you and your body become more in harmony.
Self says:
your body becomes healthier, operates MUCH closer to what it really needs instead of what it (and the mind) really want to eat.
Self says:
Over time the food selections increase, the choices become wiser, and before you know it.
Self says:
I'm eating better, feeling better, MUCH healthier, smiling, and with more energy than ever before
Self says:
you with me ?
Joanne says:
yes
Self says:
you should have a few questions at this point
Joanne says:
well
Joanne says:
i know some of this
Joanne says:
ill say this much you have more information then my doc ever gave me
Self says:
took about a year
Self says:
but the key really is reading the labels and understanding what you're reading.
Self says:
for me there was also the necessity to understand the difference between bad and good cholestoral
Self says:
Do you mind if I post this conversation ?
Joanne says:
am i gonna be friend?
Self says:
This is about as clear as I've been able to get
Self says:
unless you want to be Joanne
Joanne says:
i dont mind
Self says:
thanks.
Self says:
You see I've had this discussion with so many people over the last year and I promised myself I'd write it all into a blog.
Self says:
I just did
what has made you very happy?
Self says:
it's a long story, but the short version is I'm buddhist
Joanne says:
interesting choice
Joanne says:
so you dont have to give up all your world goods do you?>
Self says:
no, but I am anyway
Self says:
Currently living very nicely without any money
Joanne says:
how can you live very nicely with out money
Joanne says:
cause i need to know something like that
Self says:
You'd be surprised how difficult it is to get rid of every single penny I possessed
Joanne says:
are you still working?
Self says:
Yes, but not in the way you mean
Self says:
I haven't written a line of code in almost 7 months now
Self says:
What I'm doing now doesn't really have a name yet
Self says:
Have you read any of my blogs ?
Self says:
http://inthelifeofwillrawls.blogspot.com
Joanne says:
no im afraid i have not
Self says:
http://thirdsocialnet.blogspot.com
Self says:
http://willrawls.blogspot.com
Self says:
So how have you been ?
Joanne says:
im doing good
Joanne says:
currently looking for work
Self says:
oo, thanks for reminding me. I have to give this guy a call
Self says:
so what's got you not happy ?
Joanne says:
Aaron will be home for good the first week of march
Self says:
It can seem so impossible when someone you love is experiencing such unhappiness themselves
Joanne says:
Hes doing so much better
Self says:
What else ?
Self says:
How bad had he gotten ?
Joanne says:
two years ago he was having sucidal thought
Joanne says:
and trying to act a bit on them
Self says:
Yeah, he told me some about that
Self says:
well... he told me a few weeks ago
Joanne says:
he has been in two group homes getting coundeling .... then getting his meds adjusted now hes feeling better about himself and life
Self says:
hm... how many medications ?
Joanne says:
i beleive 3
Self says:
eventually he won't need those anymore
Joanne says:
im hoping
Self says:
through my darkest moments
Joanne says:
but like me mine may be for the rest of my live
Self says:
even after I had lost hope
Self says:
and forgot what the meaning of the word meant
Self says:
the little voice said, "Hope Exists"
Self says:
Self says:
I put that in my cell phone. Each time I had to make a phone call I had to read those two words.
Self says:
Now, I don't need the cell phone anymore
Joanne says:
i see on your talking with your friend and posting your words you are up alot in the middle of the morning
Joanne says:
so question do you sleep?
Self says:
A couple of years ago I found out I had a sleeping disorder
Joanne says:
sleep apnea?
Self says:
Delayed Sleep Phase Syndrome
Self says:
short answer is "I'm a night person"
Joanne says:
explain that please
Joanne says:
omg
Joanne says:
so many have that prob
Self says:
long answer is my body releases melatonin completely out of sync with the day / night cycles
Self says:
well... not really
Self says:
you see many night people can choose to become day people.
Self says:
I can't
Joanne says:
no i hear that
Self says:
I'm pretty much at the mercy of my body
Self says:
Joanne says:
i have to be sleeping between mid and 6 am
Self says:
Here, let me find you a good web page about it.
Joanne says:
did i tell you that in june i was diagnosed with diabetes 2?
Self says:
http://www.sleepdisorderchannel.net/dsps/
Self says:
hehehe... No Joanne, we have almost not spoken in several years
Self says:
so you gained a lot of weight ?
Self says:
My doctor diagnosed me with "Metabolic Syndrome" almost a year ago. That's a pre diabetic condition. I've been losing weight ever since
Joanne says:
i weighd the same since having kat
Joanne says:
over 200
Joanne says:
never could loose it
Joanne says:
with a change of diet, no sugar, no pasta, no rice
Joanne says:
i have lost over 20 lbs
Self says:
Self says:
well, you can have rice, it just has to be brown rice
Joanne says:
and if i can find some really good shoes ill be walking
Joanne says:
i have heel spurs on both feet
Self says:
you can have pasta it just has to be made from multiple grains, spinich, and tomatos
Joanne says:
i have been looking for those
Joanne says:
i think john and I need to go to some natrual stores
Joanne says:
we use to eat that pasta when were first together
Self says:
I can give you everything you need. I lost 80 pounds by educating myself on how to eat.
Joanne says:
thats awsome William
Self says:
well, I still have 80 pounds to go.
Self says:
there's a picture of me in that first blog "In the life of William Rawls"
Self says:
It was taken a few weeks ago
Self says:
since going buddhist I've become near vegan though, so I've had to completely rethink my selections of foods again
Self says:
it's kinda fun though.
Self says:
still loosing weight, too
Joanne says:
my mother in law is a near vegan and she is tooooo skinny
Self says:
hehehe... Well, I have a loooong way to go before I get too skinny
Self says:
however, it is a problem I would happily deal with
Joanne says:
shes weight probablly less then a small young teen
Self says:
see, even vegans don't know how to eat properly.
Self says:
so you want some quick pointers that took me forever to learn ?
Joanne says:
she slow added some fish and chicken to her diet
Joanne says:
shes been a vegan since she was like 30
Self says:
see, she didn't pay attention. she could have just included soy proteins
Self says:
non-GMO soy that is
Joanne says:
dont know what non gmo is
Self says:
GMO mean Genertically Modified.
Joanne says:
and id love any pointers you have
Self says:
It's where they put animal genes into plants to make the grow better.
Self says:
since buddhists don't eat animals
Self says:
nor take anything from them (milk, honey, eggs)
Self says:
taking a gene would be just as wrong
Self says:
however, vegans take the concept too far
Self says:
for instance. I can drink milk as long as it came from a happy cow
Self says:
eat honey if it came from happy bees
Joanne says:
ok but how do you know if a happy cow or not?
Self says:
even have eggs if the chickens are happy
Self says:
well, you look at the cow's lifestyle
Self says:
was the cow mistreated ?
Self says:
was it fed from non-GMO products ?
Self says:
did it get to pretty much do what it wanted or was it forced to produce milk ?
Self says:
happy cows ? happy milk !
Self says:
happy buddhist
Joanne says:
have you seen the adds for calif milk?
Self says:
naw, I don't watch much TV these days and pretty much anything from California isn't exactly welcomed in Texas (except mushrooms and raisins for some reason )
Self says:
however, those aren't the pointers I meant to tell you about.
Joanne says:
i was kidding sorry
Self says:
what are you sorry about ? I'm happy
Self says:
I've been giving serious thought to actually coming back to california.
Joanne says:
well we would love to see you
Self says:
However, I'm currently searching for the right buddhist school to go to.
Joanne says:
they have buddhist school here?
Self says:
probably
Self says:
they seem to be everywhere when you know to look for them.
Self says:
unfortunately they're mostly geared for the western mind.
Self says:
I have both a western and eastern mind.
Self says:
I know I'm interested in a Tibetan Mahayana tradition though, preferablly from a non Ripoche
Self says:
the pointers I thought I'd mention though
Self says:
you still there ?
Joanne says:
yes
Self says:
there are 8 things to realize
Self says:
there are bad fats, good fats, very good fats, bad carbohydrates, good carbohydrates, bad proteins, and good proteins
Self says:
I learned to choose my foods that contained all the good and very good while limiting my bads as much as possible.
Joanne says:
thats 7
Self says:
hehehe... actually it's 8
Self says:
the "I learned..." is the 8th
Joanne says:
oh ok
Joanne says:
Self says:
you see, knowing is only half the battle.
Self says:
without actually choosing it would have done me no good
Self says:
so what's a bad fat ?
Self says:
a bad fat is saturated
Self says:
a bad fat is also trans
Joanne says:
fry food from a fast food joint
Self says:
nope
Joanne says:
hehe
Self says:
that isn't necessary correct.
Self says:
I thought so too, and you are correct, mostly.
Self says:
but the key is to realize that, just as with everything else in life, there are no absolute rules for fast food anymore.
Self says:
fast food is actually creating some very healthy foods
Self says:
let's continue on the 8 things though
Self says:
so bad fats include saturated and trans fats
Self says:
the good fat is poly
Self says:
the VERY good fat is mono
Self says:
(i might have those reversed)
Self says:
the very good fat helps you lose weight
Self says:
the good fat helps your body function
Self says:
the bad fat does lots of really nasty things to the body, especially over time.
Self says:
bad carbohydrates are simple carbohydrates.
Self says:
good carbohydrates are complex carbohydrates.
Self says:
bad carbs are bad because your body is a carb burning machine.
Self says:
except when it has too many carbs that is.
Self says:
then your body does something interesting with bad carbs...
Self says:
bad carbs (and pretty much just bad carbs) get converted directly into body fat.
Self says:
I found, before I became educated on all this, that like 80 percent of my entire food selections were made up of bad carbs.
Self says:
bad proteins are non-lean
Self says:
good proteins are lean
Self says:
you with me ?
Joanne says:
yes
Self says:
a lean protein include soy (very good protein for women as it increases estrogen levels), fish, chicken (no skin), turkey, and the very expensive selections of beef
Self says:
non-lean proteins include any protein that contain a high percentage of any kind of fat.
Self says:
for instance, ground beef isn't lean
Self says:
filet mingon is lean (but too expensive to be included in food selections either of us can afford )
Self says:
that list of lean proteins is pretty much the order you'd want to include them in your diet.
Joanne says:
right
Joanne says:
i eat pork chops, chicken breast and black angus steak burgers
Joanne says:
among other things
Self says:
I REALLY didn't like to eat fish, but found that once I got over my "I don't want to eat fish" thing I was surprised at how many fish I had not tried that tasted GREAT. I also found that I loved sushi and sashimi.
Self says:
pork is tricky
Self says:
it can be lean
Self says:
but it can also be non-lean.
Joanne says:
never had sushi
Joanne says:
dont know what sashimi is
Self says:
sushi is the roll.
Self says:
california roll is the most common.
Self says:
sashimi is when you just have the fish
Self says:
there is cooked and uncooked sushi
Self says:
there is only uncooked sashimi
Self says:
a pork loin is lean
Self says:
however, it pretty much comes down to reading the label on every thing you buy.
Joanne says:
i get alot of my food from the schwann guy
Joanne says:
and its a Boneless Pork Loin Chops
Self says:
if it doesn't list trans fat, look through the ingrediants for the word "hydrolized". Hydrolized is generally very bad because it changes a normaly good fat into a bad fat.
Self says:
remember #8
Self says:
choice
Self says:
food selections
Self says:
notice I did not say "diet" at any time
Joanne says:
yes i know
Joanne says:
ppl kept on telling me on the atkins diet
Joanne says:
i said no
Joanne says:
its what I have to eat
Self says:
A small handful of mixed nuts each day is a good thing.
Self says:
I'm not atkins
Self says:
Self says:
I simply went and educated myself
Joanne says:
i wasnt saying that
Self says:
I decided not to look at it as a diet, but as a way of life, the way I would eat for the rest of my life.
Joanne says:
yes correct
Self says:
Sorry, I guess I have a thing with Atkins... I can't count the number of times people say
Self says:
"Oh so your on Atkins" or "your on south beach"
Self says:
then I ask them what a good carb is and they look at me blankly
Joanne says:
hehe
Joanne says:
i was talking to a lady i worked with recently
Joanne says:
she has had diabetes for years
Joanne says:
she says she doenst even know how to count carbs
Joanne says:
i think she just doesnt want to deal with it
Self says:
that's why #8 is the 8th realization.
Self says:
without it, I would not have been able to lose 80 pounds nor would I be able to be buddhist and not gain weight again
Self says:
it's simply a matter of reading each label and seeing the number of carbs to the number of proteins and fats.
Self says:
if it has a lot of fat, that's not a bad thing since your body doesn't store fat as fat.
Self says:
however, if it has a lot of saturated fats and pretty much any amount of trans fat, it isn't good for the body to have a lot of those floating around in the bloodstream.
Self says:
so look for food that contain poly and mono fats.
Self says:
if it doesn't list them, then just subtract the saturated and trans from the total.
Self says:
mixed nuts are a great example.
Self says:
loaded in fat.
Self says:
however, almost no saturated and zero trans.
Self says:
so it's all good or very good fat
Self says:
which your body uses to increase the metabolism and to heal the body
Self says:
mixed nuts (not honey glazed) are very low in carbs and what carbs they do have are almost always fiber
Self says:
fiber is like free calories.
Self says:
sugar alcohols are very good because while they aren't complex, they aren't simple either.
Self says:
the reason a simple carb is "bad" is this.
Self says:
a complex carb's molocule is literally thousands of times more complex than a simple carb.
Self says:
so in the time it takes your body to burn 1 gram of a complex carb, it could have burned thousands of grams of simple carbs.
Self says:
the cost of your body breaking down a complex carb can even cost more than it gains.
Self says:
and the whole lean non lean protein thing is a matter of health.
Self says:
however, by realizing your body needs your mind to make the right choices of foods, you and your body become more in harmony.
Self says:
your body becomes healthier, operates MUCH closer to what it really needs instead of what it (and the mind) really want to eat.
Self says:
Over time the food selections increase, the choices become wiser, and before you know it.
Self says:
I'm eating better, feeling better, MUCH healthier, smiling, and with more energy than ever before
Self says:
you with me ?
Joanne says:
yes
Self says:
you should have a few questions at this point
Joanne says:
well
Joanne says:
i know some of this
Joanne says:
ill say this much you have more information then my doc ever gave me
Self says:
took about a year
Self says:
but the key really is reading the labels and understanding what you're reading.
Self says:
for me there was also the necessity to understand the difference between bad and good cholestoral
Self says:
Do you mind if I post this conversation ?
Joanne says:
am i gonna be friend?
Self says:
This is about as clear as I've been able to get
Self says:
unless you want to be Joanne
Joanne says:
i dont mind
Self says:
thanks.
Self says:
You see I've had this discussion with so many people over the last year and I promised myself I'd write it all into a blog.
Self says:
I just did
www.lifeknot.com - interesting social network
An interesting social network idea allowing people to find each other for lots of non-mature activities, discussions, meetings, etc. likeknot
2005-01-19
BBC NEWS | World | Europe | Can quakes cause a chain reaction?
Hmmm... Perhaps the butterfly is on to something ?
BBC NEWS | World | Europe | Can quakes cause a chain reaction?
BBC NEWS | World | Europe | Can quakes cause a chain reaction?
Creative Think
Roger von Oech - one of my favorite Genius'... what's plural for Genius anyway, Geni ? :)
Creative Think
Creative Think
2005-01-12
The Butterfly Speaks
I currently see two possibilities for the cause of the tsunami. I came to these conclusions on my own then went out and found the following pages which appear to support, debate, deny, or add weight to these thoughts I choose to direct to my family and friends.
1) Asteroid causes Indian tsunami while causing massive tidal force shifts via gravity waves while slingshoting around Earth along or across the tectonic plates:
Orbit Simulation
2) A solar mass emmision released at that moment (2004-12-26 00:58:53) translated into gravity waves which, among other things, caused the earthquake leading to the tsunami. If this forcast is correct, then it is possible solar winds mau be building as we pass through the solar wake of a solar wind storm that cannot be observed until it hits.
If two is correct, it may be wise to turn off your computers for the next few hours or days. Perhaps this is the reason our computers have been acting up these last few days. I know mine have. :)
Of course, I am almost certainly wrong. I simply choose to be open to the truth that everything in this univers is connected to everything else and that the wise observer of the butterfly effect learns to watch out when a butterfly beats it's wings.
I welcome discussion, debate, alternatives, etc.
1) Asteroid causes Indian tsunami while causing massive tidal force shifts via gravity waves while slingshoting around Earth along or across the tectonic plates:
Orbit Simulation
2) A solar mass emmision released at that moment (2004-12-26 00:58:53) translated into gravity waves which, among other things, caused the earthquake leading to the tsunami. If this forcast is correct, then it is possible solar winds mau be building as we pass through the solar wake of a solar wind storm that cannot be observed until it hits.
If two is correct, it may be wise to turn off your computers for the next few hours or days. Perhaps this is the reason our computers have been acting up these last few days. I know mine have. :)
Of course, I am almost certainly wrong. I simply choose to be open to the truth that everything in this univers is connected to everything else and that the wise observer of the butterfly effect learns to watch out when a butterfly beats it's wings.
I welcome discussion, debate, alternatives, etc.
The Unity of the Sun, Earth and Moon
The Unity of the Sun, Earth and Moon: "Evidence indicates that there is an interaction between gravitational and electromagnetic fields in accord with general relativity. "
2005-01-11
Chaos Theory and Fractals
Chaos Theory and Fractals: "Edward Lorenz
During the 1960's Edward Lorenz was a meteorologist at MIT working on a project to simulate weather patterns on a computer. He accidentally stumbled upon the butterfly effect after deviations in calculations off by thousandths greatly changed the simulations. The Butterfly Effect reflects how changes on the small scale affect things on the large scale. It is the classic example of chaos, as small changes lead to large changes. An example of this is how a butterfly flapping its wings in Hong Kong could change tornado patterns in Texas. Lorenz also discovered the Lorenz Attractor, an area that pulls points towards itself. He did so during a 3D weather simulation.
The Lorenz Attractor
The Lorenz Attractor"
During the 1960's Edward Lorenz was a meteorologist at MIT working on a project to simulate weather patterns on a computer. He accidentally stumbled upon the butterfly effect after deviations in calculations off by thousandths greatly changed the simulations. The Butterfly Effect reflects how changes on the small scale affect things on the large scale. It is the classic example of chaos, as small changes lead to large changes. An example of this is how a butterfly flapping its wings in Hong Kong could change tornado patterns in Texas. Lorenz also discovered the Lorenz Attractor, an area that pulls points towards itself. He did so during a 3D weather simulation.
The Lorenz Attractor
The Lorenz Attractor"
Science News Article | Reuters.com
Science News Article | Reuters.com: "'Even for a very large event, the effect is very small,' Kanamori said. 'It's very difficult to change the rotation rate substantially.' "
Pacific islands had tsunami surges | WORLD | NEWS | tvnz.co.nz
Pacific islands had tsunami surges | WORLD | NEWS | tvnz.co.nz: "Asia's massive tsunami that wrought death and destruction in the
Indian Ocean was so strong that it generated surges on the shores
of Pacific islands thousands of kilometres away."
Indian Ocean was so strong that it generated surges on the shores
of Pacific islands thousands of kilometres away."
Message Board / Forum > Earth tilted off axis
Message Board / Forum > Earth tilted off axis: "Richard Gross, a geophysicist with NASA's Jet Propulsion Laboratory in California, theorised that a shift of mass towards the Earth's centre during the quake caused the planet to spin faster by three microseconds, or three millionths of a second, and to tilt about 2.5 centimetres on its axis."
The Irish Trojan's Blog - Gaia: a holistic theory of plate tectonics?
The Irish Trojan's Blog - Gaia: a holistic theory of plate tectonics?: "...Given these cascades of disasters past and present, one can only wonder: might there be some kind of butterfly effect, latent and deadly, lying out in the seismic world? There is of course no hard scientific truth - no firm certainty that a rupture on a tectonic boundary in the western Pacific (in Honshu, say) can lead directly to a break in a boundary in the eastern Pacific (in Parkfield), or another in the eastern Indian ocean (off Sumatra, say). But anecdotally, as this year has so tragically shown, there is evidence aplenty. "
result - definition of result by the Free Online Dictionary, Thesaurus and Encyclopedia.
result - definition of result by the Free Online Dictionary, Thesaurus and Encyclopedia.: "re�sult Pronunciation (r-zlt)
intr.v. re�sult�ed, re�sult�ing, re�sults
1. To come about as a consequence. See Synonyms at follow.
2. To end in a particular way: Their profligate lifestyle resulted in bankruptcy.
n.
1.
a. The consequence of a particular action, operation, or course; an outcome. See Synonyms at effect.
b. A favorable or concrete outcome or effect. Often used in the plural: started studying and got immediate results.
2. Mathematics The quantity or expression obtained by calculation."
intr.v. re�sult�ed, re�sult�ing, re�sults
1. To come about as a consequence. See Synonyms at follow.
2. To end in a particular way: Their profligate lifestyle resulted in bankruptcy.
n.
1.
a. The consequence of a particular action, operation, or course; an outcome. See Synonyms at effect.
b. A favorable or concrete outcome or effect. Often used in the plural: started studying and got immediate results.
2. Mathematics The quantity or expression obtained by calculation."
Butterfly effect - definition of Butterfly effect by the Free Online Dictionary, Thesaurus and Encyclopedia.
Butterfly effect - definition of Butterfly effect by the Free Online Dictionary, Thesaurus and Encyclopedia.: "Noun 1. butterfly effect - the phenomenon whereby a small change at one place in a complex system can have large effects elsewhere, e.g., a butterfly flapping its wings in Rio de Janeiro might change the weather in Chicago
consequence, effect, result, upshot, outcome, event, issue - a phenomenon that follows and is caused by some previous phenomenon; 'the magnetic effect was greater when the rod was lengthwise'; 'his decision had depressing consequences for business'; 'he acted very wise after the event'"
consequence, effect, result, upshot, outcome, event, issue - a phenomenon that follows and is caused by some previous phenomenon; 'the magnetic effect was greater when the rod was lengthwise'; 'his decision had depressing consequences for business'; 'he acted very wise after the event'"
willrawls's Yahoo! Profile: "'What will be will be with or without me since everything happens for the reasons before and the best thing I can say is I know nothing.'"
1/10/2005 8:18:05 PM will Alex Stewart@home AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
1/10/2005 8:38:27 PM Alex Stewart@home will Hmmm, not sure if that is an expression of happiness, sadness or something else ! ;)
1/10/2005 8:39:12 PM will Alex Stewart@home it's a buddhist thing
1/10/2005 8:40:34 PM will Alex Stewart@home how's the weather ?
1/10/2005 8:47:00 PM Alex Stewart@home will warm, sunny, no rain. A typical Sydney summer day. You ?
1/10/2005 8:47:30 PM will Alex Stewart@home Hmm.... I had forgotten where you were.
1/10/2005 8:47:33 PM will Alex Stewart@home How are things now ?
1/10/2005 8:47:40 PM will Alex Stewart@home American news has moved on
1/10/2005 8:48:14 PM Alex Stewart@home will I think there are about a 100 Australian dead, but I doubt anyone will know.
1/10/2005 8:48:37 PM Alex Stewart@home will We are still getting blanket coverage. No other news I suppose, so they keep scraping it up
1/10/2005 8:48:52 PM Alex Stewart@home will And will do for some time no doubt
1/10/2005 8:49:15 PM will Alex Stewart@home yes... the news was so much better when it just showed what happened rather than tried to make it sound bad
1/10/2005 8:49:43 PM will Alex Stewart@home they can't see that everything changed. but they will soon
1/10/2005 8:50:43 PM Alex Stewart@home will I try and steer clear of the media - it is never very reliable or trustworthy. I hope you are right, but once the cameras move out, it will be forgotten about - like all the other tragedies :(
1/10/2005 8:51:33 PM will Alex Stewart@home you may find that not the case this time
1/10/2005 8:51:54 PM will Alex Stewart@home 9/11 rings true for so many americans, they will not forget or be distracted so easily
1/10/2005 8:52:04 PM will Alex Stewart@home then again... I could be wrong
1/10/2005 8:52:11 PM will Alex Stewart@home maybe they want to forget...
1/10/2005 8:52:33 PM will Alex Stewart@home but they won't get the chance.. mother nature is pissed :) she isn't done by a long shot
1/10/2005 8:52:39 PM will Alex Stewart@home more like an opening volley
1/10/2005 8:53:12 PM Alex Stewart@home will Yes, I agree with you there ! It will get a lot worse before it even thinks about getting any better
1/10/2005 8:54:06 PM will Alex Stewart@home if anything important happens, i would greatly appreciate if you told me.
1/10/2005 8:55:07 PM will Alex Stewart@home I no longer listen to the media except when they are overwhelmed. It's only when they think that they get it wrong. They did a good job with the tsunami for a few days... that whole 9/11 thing :)
1/10/2005 8:55:36 PM Alex Stewart@home will No worries. But what do you define as "important" ?
1/10/2005 8:56:19 PM will Alex Stewart@home Right now... The fact that the earth literally shook, that the day is 3 millionth's of a second longer, and that the earth tilted on its axis 2.5 cetimeters
1/10/2005 8:56:25 PM will Alex Stewart@home and the butterfly effect
1/10/2005 8:56:49 PM will Alex Stewart@home 30 feet killed 150,000
1/10/2005 8:57:01 PM will Alex Stewart@home along a stretch some 1000 kilometers long
1/10/2005 8:57:15 PM will Alex Stewart@home what would 2.5 centimeters do on the scale of a planet ?
1/10/2005 8:57:38 PM will Alex Stewart@home I'm going to blog this conversation... do you mind ?
1/10/2005 8:38:27 PM Alex Stewart@home will Hmmm, not sure if that is an expression of happiness, sadness or something else ! ;)
1/10/2005 8:39:12 PM will Alex Stewart@home it's a buddhist thing
1/10/2005 8:40:34 PM will Alex Stewart@home how's the weather ?
1/10/2005 8:47:00 PM Alex Stewart@home will warm, sunny, no rain. A typical Sydney summer day. You ?
1/10/2005 8:47:30 PM will Alex Stewart@home Hmm.... I had forgotten where you were.
1/10/2005 8:47:33 PM will Alex Stewart@home How are things now ?
1/10/2005 8:47:40 PM will Alex Stewart@home American news has moved on
1/10/2005 8:48:14 PM Alex Stewart@home will I think there are about a 100 Australian dead, but I doubt anyone will know.
1/10/2005 8:48:37 PM Alex Stewart@home will We are still getting blanket coverage. No other news I suppose, so they keep scraping it up
1/10/2005 8:48:52 PM Alex Stewart@home will And will do for some time no doubt
1/10/2005 8:49:15 PM will Alex Stewart@home yes... the news was so much better when it just showed what happened rather than tried to make it sound bad
1/10/2005 8:49:43 PM will Alex Stewart@home they can't see that everything changed. but they will soon
1/10/2005 8:50:43 PM Alex Stewart@home will I try and steer clear of the media - it is never very reliable or trustworthy. I hope you are right, but once the cameras move out, it will be forgotten about - like all the other tragedies :(
1/10/2005 8:51:33 PM will Alex Stewart@home you may find that not the case this time
1/10/2005 8:51:54 PM will Alex Stewart@home 9/11 rings true for so many americans, they will not forget or be distracted so easily
1/10/2005 8:52:04 PM will Alex Stewart@home then again... I could be wrong
1/10/2005 8:52:11 PM will Alex Stewart@home maybe they want to forget...
1/10/2005 8:52:33 PM will Alex Stewart@home but they won't get the chance.. mother nature is pissed :) she isn't done by a long shot
1/10/2005 8:52:39 PM will Alex Stewart@home more like an opening volley
1/10/2005 8:53:12 PM Alex Stewart@home will Yes, I agree with you there ! It will get a lot worse before it even thinks about getting any better
1/10/2005 8:54:06 PM will Alex Stewart@home if anything important happens, i would greatly appreciate if you told me.
1/10/2005 8:55:07 PM will Alex Stewart@home I no longer listen to the media except when they are overwhelmed. It's only when they think that they get it wrong. They did a good job with the tsunami for a few days... that whole 9/11 thing :)
1/10/2005 8:55:36 PM Alex Stewart@home will No worries. But what do you define as "important" ?
1/10/2005 8:56:19 PM will Alex Stewart@home Right now... The fact that the earth literally shook, that the day is 3 millionth's of a second longer, and that the earth tilted on its axis 2.5 cetimeters
1/10/2005 8:56:25 PM will Alex Stewart@home and the butterfly effect
1/10/2005 8:56:49 PM will Alex Stewart@home 30 feet killed 150,000
1/10/2005 8:57:01 PM will Alex Stewart@home along a stretch some 1000 kilometers long
1/10/2005 8:57:15 PM will Alex Stewart@home what would 2.5 centimeters do on the scale of a planet ?
1/10/2005 8:57:38 PM will Alex Stewart@home I'm going to blog this conversation... do you mind ?
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